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Let's Player, YouTuber, Gamer, Programmer, Webprogrammer, Artist, Art Lover, Wannabe Voice Actor, Game Developer, Music composer, ... There are so many things I do. And Newgrounds is one of the places I spend some minutes every day to get inspiration.

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Posted by Manderby - March 17th, 2019


Hey everybody,


This is a post about cleaning up the past, leaving the comfort zone, weighting values worths, freeing up time and planning the future.


I alwas was and will be a creative person. But as many of you know, with the gift comes the curse and so my personal folder of yet-unfinished-and-probably-never-being-able-to-find-the-time projects grew once more by a yet to be determined count. With almost 40 years, this leaving-behind-behaviour has become routine and if there really is something like a midlife-crisis, I probably had about 3 of them every year. I long for the future, for new stuff, for challenges. That's the curse.


So every now and then, I clean up. I clean up very much. This happens about every 5 years. It starts slow with small details which you put aside, thow in the waste bin or simply move from the desktop to the archive. But then, suddenly, you start to realize that you do not care that much anymore about related stuff. You have no motivation to look at it, don't want to spend time and money on it. And then you throw that away and again, there is even more related stuff which you do not need anymore because you just threw the other things away. And so it goes on and on and suddenly you realize, that you are actually ending an era.


Ending eras is kind of melancholic but a necessary step in any creative process. Unless you make your hobby your job, you have to evlove, otherwise you stall. And stalling is the black matter of creativity. It is unavoidable, undescribable, undetectable and yet we all know, it exists and we are drawn towards. But you are unable to tell until you hit that critical spot where you lose interest, and then you suddenly know, you were stalling for already a long time. Self-persuation, procastination and finally lying to yourself keeps you falling into this trap all over again and again and again.


So I like to think that the melancholic part about ending eras is not so much the pity or shame of not finishing something but the regret of the lost time spent trying-hard for no rational reason and hence the positive outlook of changing that now. It's a realization of what is simply put the solution to the problem of boredom. And when pondering if this all could have been avoided, simply remember that this is not a profession, it is a hobby, a personal thing which we all do for ourselfes. And so we can rethorically ask with a smirk: Where would be the fun in it if all would be perfectly orchestrated? I still love being creative and just move on to new stuff.


New eras are a wonderful thing. Start fresh and build a new life from the ground up. I had several eras. Starting drawing comics, starting new jobs, starting relationships, starting gaming, starting programming, starting my own company, starting doing let's plays and now starting music.


When looking back now, I once more see now how much I was spending on time and money for things which have just been in my comfort zone. It's a good thing to find such a zone but every now and then, one has to leave it in search for another. Why spending money on an application license which I now will probably not need anymore, why spend time looking for reassurance when you know yor are only scratching the surface, why keeping everybody waiting in uncertainty when one can simply end all speculation, why making promises one does not want to keep anymore.


A sad thing which I observed more and more recently is that many creative people flee from their era. They work so hard, keep making promises, push themselfes to limits unbearable until they hit the wall of demotivation so hard, they simply rage quit, leaving behind a sour taste of failure and displease. I see it in game development, in animation series, in music, in video channels, in fandom-sites, in forums, ... If you observe yourself being in such a mood of almost falling apart, do yourself and your fans a favor and quit early on, remembering the good times. Not wait until you destroyed yourself. It's not always easy or even possible to do this but try to be aware. You are no slave, even if you maybe get payed for it and your fans have high demands.


Ending eras can be very fruitful. Don't ever think of creative eras being a failure for not being successful. You did it for yourselfes and you evolved by doing that.


With that said, new eras come. Old eras come to an end. No, I'm not leaving Newgrounds or something. I'm just sharing my process over the last few weeks and months. I'm sure most of you can relate to this. That's how things roll.


Be creative!


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Posted by Manderby - December 17th, 2018


Ok, I just bought FL Studio some days ago and having lots of fun with it. I am proudly presenting my first work: Sputnik Tango.

https://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/838248

Headphones recommeded. Scouting recommended. ;-)

Just some basic synth and standard beats but you can do so much with that. After years of absence, I finally have the inspiration and time to dive into music again. Grew up with the Amiga Octalizer but lost myself in other hobbies since.

I plan to compose more in the future. Just for fun.

Enjoy!


Posted by Manderby - January 2nd, 2018


On January 1st, I tried to clean up a little my computer and found out that there are still some old music pieces laying around which I compos(t)ed more than 10 years ago. So I thought, why not post them on Newgrounds to make some more entries for my audio submissions. Maybe to finally get scoutet? Let me know what you think!

A classical song:

https://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/782557

Three funk / dance / experimental / 80ies songs:

https://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/782571

https://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/782572

https://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/782576

Had a lot of fun rediscovering my old experiments but it was no easy task to make the old files work. Who in the world composes with GarageBand anyway?


Posted by Manderby - January 20th, 2017


For Pixelday, I thought I could play an old game which I really liked here on Newgrounds.

 

Playthrough in German.

 

Play the game here:

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/519030

 

 


Posted by Manderby - November 17th, 2016


As part of a weekly livestream, I play games here on newgrounds in German. This time, I played the lovely game with our ultimate friend Cuboy: Back to the Cubeture.

 

Play the game here:

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/513114

 


Posted by Manderby - November 8th, 2016


Owlboy deserves every credit there is. And even though it is not a Newgrounds game, I follow the lead of admiring the beatiful pixel-art platformer by delivering you a Let's Play in German:

Go buy that game, it is nostalgically beatiful and fun to play.


Posted by Manderby - October 27th, 2016


Join me to play a little game series hosted here on Newgrounds.

Doing a blind run in German. Have Fun!

Play the games here:


http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/603900
http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/625439
http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/643590
 


Posted by Manderby - September 24th, 2016


To celebrate 10 years of madness, I do a quick run of Madness Accelerant in German.

 

Play the game here:

 

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/512407

 

Watch the video here:

 


Posted by Manderby - July 29th, 2016


German Playthrough of Epic Battle Fantasy 3. Need I say more? Play it here or watch the Let's Play (German knowledge mandatory)!

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/548041

 


Posted by Manderby - July 23rd, 2016


I did a Live-Stream of Newgrounds-Games some days ago. I covered three games. Have fun watching the episodes in German!

Pandemic II (3 Episodes):

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/448950

Lost Ethereal:

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/674722

Mastermind: World Conqueror (8 Episodes)

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/463278